I really do know how you feel, the last few months have been a mammoth battle, that I seem to have had to drag myself through daily. I got to a stage where I was seriously at the end of my physical and emotional tether, and was ready to crack, and I honestly did not now how I was going to go on.
Lucy has been great and finding the new yard has been so much better for me.
I feel really down all the time at the moment, and totally intolerant of things I would normally have a high tolerance for, and feel quite antagonistic at the world in general.
I think the never ended crappy whether is not helping, am finding it hard to even find my inner smile at the moment. My confidence with myself, is at rock bottom, and just feel I am crap at everything, so whats the point, why bother doing it.Feel like I am constantly setting my self up for failure. Why put myself through the misery? I have no self belief.
Just feel really blah at the moment, and having really really painful feet at the moment as well, so every step is like walking on glass, bloody horrible when the things you enjoy doing the most involves walking on them!
So I can totally relate to everything you have said, and empathise a great deal.
I really want the warmer weather!!